..that I realised that I've revealed too much of myself. I suddenly feel annoyed with myself. Everything that I did and said annoys me. It's better to be mysterious and only give the "what you see is what you get". It's more fun that way.

Yeah. I've been having nice dreams for two days in a row. I usually forget what I dream about when I wake up. But those two days that I had the dreams was so wonderful that I remember exactly how it looked like.

The first dream was about me going to the court. I did something bad and had to go to court. Accompanying me was 5 others friends Amy, Dee, Riza, Ahmad and Izzat was there with me. The court was really beautiful. It had a beautiful garden in it with fucshia flowers and orchids. And turns out it wasn't really a punishment. They just want to teach me a lesson and scare me. I do not know what I did wrong in that dream but I was glad that I get to go there with my friends. So we walked around the court and stumble upon an ice cream parlour. I remembered I orded something heavenly chocolatey that cost RM20 for a scoop. There were vast range of flavour. So I had to wait for my friend to choose from some 20 ice-cream flavour. I waited so long that I fell asleep. I woke up and ordered mine while my friends were already seated on a bench at the garden/park. I walked to them and realise that i was walking on flowers. The place was carpeted with flowers. It was really niccee! And I took out my handphone to snap photos of it. That's when I woke up.

My second dream had me and my family at a park or garden(I don't know why I kept dreaming about being at a park/garden). The park was something like the park we see in The Sound of Music. It was reallly big and we had it all for ourselves. I love it so much. There were big trees for shades and swings on the trees. We were all just running around and play at the park. I feel like everyone was feeling young and carefree. I felt like a little girl. I was running down the hill. And that's when I woke up.

That'll be my ultimate dream vacation!

I had a really nice 8 hours of sleep those two nights. It was worth it. And today I don't remember what I dreamt about. I was only asleep for 2 hours and had to wake up for work. And now it 7.38am and I'm at the office on a Sunday!

It was nice. I was there for 4 days 3 nights. Woohoo! Yeah. So I finally got the island vacation that I wanted and now I just can't get enough of it. I want more. We get to stay in a room with a sea view. I didn't take any photos in the room. But it was really nice. I had a great time but, But I would say, it could have been better lah. I was in Redang with 4 others (Riza, Ahmad, Izzat and Adil). I love being in the water. I was a mermaid in my past life. Betul tak tipu. Ehehe. My favourite part of the trip was riding the bicycle around the island. We just cycled to the jeti and back to the hotel. It was really nice. The last time I rode a bicycle was probably 6 years ago with my family in Pangkor. It was nice too. Now I feel like need to buy a bicycle. :D

Oh. While I was there. I found out that I have forgotten how to swim and almost drown.

I love traveling. And I got to do just that last weekend with Amjad, Cawat and Zam. We begin our journey to Johor on Friday. It took us 5 hours to reach Johor Bahru. And at 7p.m we arrive at the Crystal Crown hotel. Me in separate room of course. So I slept alone in the hotel room by myself for two nights on a king size bed. The first night was quite scary. I can hear and see my heart pounding heavily. But thank god I was too tired to stay awake and think about being scared. On the first night, the boys and I had dinner at Singgah Selalu. It was my first time there and I can easily say that it is much much much better then Rasta. Except that, I don't think I would bring my family to eat there. Too crowded. Oh that night, I slept with my buku doa-doa beside me. Just in case if I woke up from a nightmare in the middle of the night. I also slept with the telephone right on my pillow just beside my head. I was preparing for the worst case scenario(kena gangguan). The guys were teasing me about it. But I survived! Woohoo!

But anyway, we went to Singapore on the second day. Amjad drove all the way to Singapore and then to Orchard Road. It took us more than an hour to get pass through the immigration and I don't know what else. We had to go through 3 booths. We got lost for another hour looking for the route to Orchard Road. Penatt gila mencari. Even the GPS didn't help much. But finally we got on the right route and reached Orchard Road safely. We were in luck that we were there just in time for the Great Singapore Sale. But I did not buy anything(I'm planning to go to Redang this month. I need to save a bit) But I can say that I've used up all my energy in Singapore. We got on the MRT from Orchard Road and to Bugis Junction and from there we walked all the way to Sim Lim Square which is quite far but I'm used to it :D I love walking.
spent a few hours there and then we decided that we have to visit the Merlion.

So from there we took a taxi ride to Merlimau Merlion Park. I love the city, the buildings especially when it all lit up at night. Took a few photos with the Merlion and I again I feel so lucky that we went there that night because they were having an Art Festival and was showing an acrobatic dance thingy called The Diamond. It was reallly beautttifull. I love it very much. We waited for the show to start even though it was getting dark and it was starting to rain. But it was worth it. And from there we took another taxi ride back to Orchard Road. Amjad continue his pursue to shop in Singapore. And my legs was starting to give in to the pain so I sat outside the shopping mall. After that, we got into Amjad's car and decided to head back to Johor. On our way back, we found ourselves back into the road to Merlion Park and decided that since we were already there, we have to try the Singapore Flyer. So we walked around the Singapore Flyer to look for the ticket booth and when we found it, we were late by 10 minutes from the last ticket release. :( So sad. But the journey was fun. Ehehe. We took photos with the Singapore Flyer and I smiled because... "I memang macam ni". AHhahahahdjasdasdake

So we ended our trip there and head back home(Malaysia Woohoo!) It took us another hour or more to pass through the immigration. It was a nice trip despite that I did not get to take that ride on Singapore Flyer. There'll be next time. I would love to spend one whole day taking the MRT and walk around the city center at night.

We head straight to Singgah Selalu for dinner. And I can see that everyone was really tired and worn out. They were less responsive that night. Ehehe. Which is understandable. I was tired too. When we reached the hotel, I went straight to bed. It was almost 2a.m and I was planning to wake up early for breakfast the next day and I didn't want to look tired at Asha's Wedding. But that doesn't help too. Ehehe. I woke up at 8 and waited until 10am for breakfast. I went back to sleep after breakfast until 1p.m. I was really sleepy at that time. Oh I slept in my baju kurung just to make sure that I won't have to rush getting ready for Asha's Wedding.

We checked out of the hotel at 2p.m. I think and head straight to Asha's house which was really near to the place we stayed. We reached Asha's house just in time for the sanding to start. So the boys found a table and sit there while I went into the house and watch the sanding a few minutes. It was a bit sentimental for me to watch a friend in wedding attire. Plus I've shared a lot of memories with her when I was studying in MMU. But anyway, she looks beautiful and I look really tired. I have the photo. Ehehe But we had to leave early it was already 3.30p.m and we had to start our journey before it gets dark.

I think I slept most of the time. Woke up for two hours when we stopped in Melaka to eat Ikan Bakar at Medan Ikan Bakar Umbai-Umbai. They have more than 10 Ikan Bakar shops so we just chose the one closer to the water and the place is called Ikan Bakar Parameswara. Which I think is okay except for the veges and tom yum. Tak sedap.
I was talking with the boys until I say a really familiar face and I paused for a few second and called out "Bahijahhh!". But she didn't hear me and I got up and walked up to her and gave her a hug. I haven't seen her for more than 2 months I think. It felt like meeting a bf, eheheh I was contented with the whole journey. :D

She just got there and we had finished eating so it was already dark and we continue our journey home. I went back to sleep and they woke me up when we reached my house. That's where my journey ended.

I bought a cooking book recently. So today I attempted to make an Apple Shortcake :D That was my second time in the kitchen. The last time I made an Opera Cake which doesn't really turn out good. Anyway, I'm not working today(Monday)and also Tuesday. So on Sunday, while I was having my dinner break, I decided to head to One Utama and buy they ingredients to make the Apple Strudels. So looked at the list, there were caster sugar, milk, eggs, plain powder, ground cinnamon(YUMMY!), small apple, unsalted butter and baking powder and I bought them all.

When I reached home around 12, I checked the things that I bought and I realised that I bought the wrong type of sugar(icing sugar) and Coco Powder which is the same colour with ground cinnamon. I was a bit dissapointed as I planned to make it on Monday, on my free day, to de-stress myself. :D But I knew that I just have to do it today, and so I checked in mak's spices drawer and found another bottle of ground sugar. Yippie.

So last night I tried sleeping, but I couldn't stop thinking about making the Apple Shortcake. So I decided to do it then. The first thing that I did was sifting the flour together with the baking soda which was really energy consuming. I used the flour sifting tool that requires a lot of muscle work. Which reminds me of something that a friend (Amin) told me last Friday, about doing weight lifting and tearing a muscle. I'm kinda glad that I paid attention to him. Ehehe. Because it scares me to know that I could tear a muscle or two just by sifting flour. So I drank milk, assuming that it contains protein. Anyway my muscle is fine.

This is how the flour sifter? look like





It actually went smoothly and I was about to wait for the dough to settle for 20 minutes when I turn and saw a packet of unopened Caster Sugar I found in the cupboard. I forgot to mix the sugar with the mixture. So I mixed them together when the dough is already hardened. More hard work!

But anyway, my favourite part was when I sprinkled the Cinnamon over the Apple. I just love the smell of it.

Oh I bought two carton of milk when I only need 2 tablespoon of milk. I didn't know how that happened. ANd this is how Ana's Apple Shortbread look like,



Edible kan.

Yeap I just realised that. I was out with friends last night and this person keep complaining how she can't forget her ex boyfriend of five years. And I feel like an idiot. The things that came out from my mouth is sort of heartless. So she was complaining how she is always reminded of her ex boyfriend everytime she get close to a boy -like going on dates and stuff like that. And I said, "Tengah you sedih-sedih ni, your ex tu tengah seronok-seronok keluar dengan orang lain". I said that. And the moment I finish my sentence, I saw that she had a smirk on her face in annoyance to my statement. I felt cruel. I've never been in a relationship that long. But my intention were good - clearly I didn't think much.

In my mind, I feel like she's being a hmm dramaqueen. But then again. Of course she's sad. She held on to another person for love and support for five years and suddenly all that gone. And the things that I said, I thought it was only to give her strength to face the reality that this person that she had loved so much during the five years is no longer hers. And she should be enjoying her time meeting people. Clearly I'm not the right person to talk about relationship. Plus, everytime when someone tells me about their problem in relationships, I would tell them to leave. I'm not a very nice person. :D People shouldn't come to me when they have problem with relationships. Hmm yeah.

My friends and I had a karaoke session in Ampang. And at one point she cried when someone sang a sad song and that made me feel like a bad person for saying the things that I said earlier that night.

So apart from feeling bad for giving bad advice, I felt bad for singing badly. The people that I karaoke-ed with last night got really nice voice and they can sing. But I behave last night. I didn't shout and scream. They sang rock kapak and ballads. I don't do ballads :D I like shouting and screaming. Hmm and suddenly I'm reminded of a karaoke session with Asha, Amjad, Otot and Port last week. I scream when I sing. I'm sorry. And I should learn to behave. Yeah :D But you can't really blame me. The sound was really loud and I really have to shout to make myself heard. Yeap. But the place that I went to last night was not bad. Plus, it's really cheap.

An encounter with a dead cockroach in the toilet at my office got me into a nightmare last night. And it was just a brief encounter. When I saw the dead cockroach in the toilet, I went into another toilet. So it was just 3 seconds that I was in the same room as the cockroach. And I didn't think much about it especially when it is lifeless. I'm not afraid of cockroaches unless if it can fly. Because they fly aimlessly. That will get me screaming and shouting like a girl should. I am a girl :D

I'm just amazed that the 3 seconds encounter, had a lasting effect on me, unconciously.

Kopi susu gula pasir, kopi susu gula di panci
Kopi susu gula pasir, kopi susu gula di panci

Jikalau nona cintalah sungguh sayang
Jikalau nona cintalah sungguh sayang
Aduh jiwa sayang … aduh jiwa sayang
Jiwa manis terbayang-bayang


A very cute song from an Indonesian-Dutch singer. Papa had been playing it over and over in his car while Muiz sang along with this song. It got stuck in my head yesterday. And the way Muiz sang it is sooo cute. He goes "kopi shushu gula pashir.. kopi shushu gula di panjhi" over and over again. Comell gila.

I think this song is going to be his connection to his childhood when he grows up. Mine would be 'Top of the World' and 'Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head'. Whenever I listen to these two song, I feel like I'm travelling to someplace nice. It even reminds me of a family trip to Europe when I was 8. I can't remember much. But I know how it felt like. Plus when I was little Papa likes to play these songs in his car plus few other country songs.

Communication is vital regardless of who you are. A father, mother, daughter, son, cousin, friend, colleague, partner, companion and etc. Not to say that I'm a good communicator, but at least I feel the need to communicate with people. And I feel that the internet is not a real and solid medium to communicate if you can't communicate with another person face to face, it'll make you look silly. Based on my experience in high school. I was very shy and I don't know how to talk or make friends with my fellow classmates. I have few friends in high school. And during that time, the only time that I can have a conversation with someone is through my school channel on IRC. So I made a few friends through MIRC and it makes me feel silly whenever I bumped into them at school. Because I just smiled and looked away. It was silly.

And what's worst about the internet is that it is not a physical world. It can't be a place for you to show your anger and hate when you're disconnected with the physical world. What I meant with physical world is a world where a physical form of a person is present. You can't get that on the internet. And when you can communicate in the physical world, when you talk, your voice goes through a physical process. Your vocal chords vibrates and let out a sound that travel through the air and to someone's ears. It is more appreciated because you can control the sound, pitch and tone with your vocal chords and I feel that it is more understandable. Plus, it's reallly fun to watch animated faces than to stare on the profile photos or a mental picture of a person on your head.

There's nothing wrong with communicating through the internet. But when you never talk to the person in the physical world, your words might get misunderstood.

I had a great weekend. I got the Saturday and Sunday off and I'm back at work. I spent my Saturday with Mama, Papa and Zura in KL. It was a tiring day. And the best thing is, I had 8 hours of sleep for three days. I didn't have problem sleeping because I spent the whole day walking around and I like that. On my normal weekday off, I usually have problem sleeping probably because I'm anxious of what to do on a weekday.

And yesterday, I went to see my school friends(Shafeka, Shazila and Amera) in the morning. Amera is finally here for good and she'll be going to a BTN and god knows when we'll be able to see her again. She'll be posted right after she finished the BTN program. I hope she'll be posted to somewhere really nice. We watched movie at GSC One Utama. But it was a short meeting as Amera had to leave at 3 and so was I. I went to the Hot Air Balloon Fiesta with another sets of friends. I actually smsed my friends asking if they want to go to the Hot Air Balloon Fiesta because I want to make sure that my weekend is not wasted with me doing nothing. Ehehe. But anyway I end up going there with a friend who sms me asking me if I wanted to go. So I said yes! So I was there. For the first time I get to see a hot air balloon just inches away from where I was standing. But Putrajaya was super hot. I had a really great time yesterday. The sad thing is, I didn't get to snap any photos of the balloons because I don't have a camera and I left my phone at home. And I survived without my handphone for 7 hours. And when I got home at 11 pm, I got 4 misscalls and 1 sms. Which kind of surprise me and I like that. Ehehe. I got to get a camera!