I'm replacing Kak Mia for today. She's on MC leave. Today was supposed to be my off day. But yippie! I need all the extra money I can get. I'm not praying for anyone to get sick! But it's good news for me. JAHAT.

So anyway, I woke up at 10a.m today and took my shower. Then I turned on my pc. It's a ritual now. I shower then I turn on my pc. It's better in that order. Or I'll be stuck in front of the pc shower really late. Waste of time. Time in front of the computer is really a waste of my youth. :D Unless if I'm downloading something. While I was drying my hair, Papa knocked on my door. I didn't hear what he said, but I just replied "Ana pergi kerja pukul 3" Assuming that he was asking me what time I was going to leave for work. Then I heard him asking me again and I gave him the same answer. Then I heard his voice again so I walked to the door and opened it. He asked me to download a few songs from youtube.

I'm always nervous when Papa asked me to do something for him. Because he's a perfectionist and gets in a bad mood if I don't do it properly. So he searched for Helena Shapiro and Francoise Hardy. Hehehe nice. I don't know Helena Shapiro. But I really like Francoise Hardy. So anyway, I downloaded them from youtube and successfully burn them on DVD. So he was happy.

He was playing the DVD in his room. He was in a very good mood today. When he walked into my room he was humming the songs. And when we were on our way to my office, he talks about Helena and Francoise. I've been listening to really old songs from the 60's and 70's. And I never thought of it, that my father listened to them when he was younger. And when I listened to those songs, I don't feel like it's old. It felt new to me. I wonder if he have heard of Serge. Ehehe Because that is one crazy guy that I love. He's a jerk. But he makes great tunes! And I love him

Let's talk in bubbles. Go listen to him. :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cSVBH__bgMo

I have to resolve my boredom with my hair by cutting it myself. Just the fringe. Ehehe. Now it's hmm not so nice. I don't know how to give myself a good fringe. But I did it. :D So brave! Ahaha. Nak DUIT :|

Anyway. My Dahlia is alive! They grew so fast!! I looked at my tanaman everyday when I wake up. And the Dahlia wasn't there this morning. First thing I did when I wake up is, water the plant and open my window so that they can get the sunlight and air that they need to grow. It took almost 2 weeks for the Dahlia to let that cute green baby leaves out. I almost gave up on it. But I water it everyday, hoping that something is baking underneath all that soil. Love them!

Can't wait for them to surprise me tomorrow! I don't feel like leaving the house knowing that they're alive!

I planted the seed 3 days ago and found this this morning. I'm excited. The name of the plant is Portulaca. I planted Dahlia seeds on the same day but it has yet to show any sign of life. I'm anticipating it.

So anyway it was a very tiring weekend. I didn't get to go to any of my friend's open houses. I had relatives coming to my house. And this morning I went to KL with Zura, Anum and Etty's boyfriend. After that we parted with Etty and her boy and went to Adik's house for another raya meetings with Pak Mahadi's cucu. Khala Cekwa came too.

A very tiring day

My heart goes out to those who have lost their family and those who went to a traumatic quake in Indonesia. I felt it too yesterday in the cinema. But somehow I think I'm the only one who felt it. My earth was shaken at that time. It was subtle. But I felt it. :) <--- What's wrong with me?

I saw what the situation was like in Indonesia from news clip at my office. It was chaotic. I can tell how people there values their lives and the people they love. Reminds me of Cloverfield. Super scary!

I just had a thought today about what I can do to become rich. And MLM isn't one of it. The only way MLM will work for me is if I know how to pukau people. Yeap. That's the only way that I can do MLM. I'm not good at persuading or selling a product. I think my communication skills aren't that good. I know that. For example, when I explain a plot of a movie to another person, the story is jumbled up and missing some parts here and there. People always give me a confused look when I tell them about a plot of a movie. But I think I'm good at talking rubbish. This is one of them. Ehehe

But I'm yearning to at least for once be successful in persuading another person. I've never sold anything to anyone my whole life. And I'm currently loving Mad Men. I love it so much. I think I can learn from it. I'm sure my fellow Media Innovation course mates would love it too. There was this one episode where Don Draper (My favourite men in Mad Men :DDDDD The only men in Mad Men eligible for that spot!) was pitching on a circular tray that is use together with the slide projector that looks like a wheel. The circular tray is attached to the slide projector and you insert the slides in the slots on the circular tray. And the way he presented the product was super duper awesome. He called it The Carousel. It was for Kodak! And it really exist!! Superr isn't it. I love Mad Men!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yWyLaXCV2_s

I just got back from Temerloh, Pahang. I had a great time going from one house to another house. Ngantuk jap.

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Yeah so I went from one house to another. It was fun. Meeting my tok-tok saudara which from whom I finally learnt how my grandfather look like when he was much older. I've never met my Tok Arshad. From what I know he was quite a catch when he was much younger. Ehehe. I think I have the best cousins, aunties and uncles. They are all very entertaining. I feel heavy whenever we have to part. Our first stop in Pahang was at the Tanah Perkuburan Kampung Chengal and later after that we went to Mak We, Tok Chu Lijah, Tok Uda, Tok Bangau and several others which I can't remember and then to Cik Ina's house. I might have gotten some of the names wrong. Ehehe I haven't seen them for ages.

And today we went to Tok Arshad's (i think) friend's house in Bandar Baru Bangi. And to his sister's house also in Bandar Baru Bangi and then to Cik Lan's kebun in Semenyih. Then back to Bangi(I think) to Tok Manap's house. I've never been to his house. But we've met many times at Mak Cik Ani's house and also in Pahang. It was a very tiring day! I didn't get enough rest since yesterday.

Again, I think I have the best cousins, aunties, uncles and family in the whole wide world. When I think about them, I wish we were all immortals.

I wish vitamins could penetrate into my hair as fast as calcium penetrating into my bones. At least that's what I think. 2 days ago when I woke up for sahur, I almost fell. My left leg was weak and I experience a mild pain on my pelvic. So I drank Mak's Anlene (concentrated formula). Fortunately it happened on my off day. But sadly, I had to stay home because of that. Oh none of my family member knew about it. But I'm okay now! But it's scary.

And I've been taking supplement pills for my hair and I still experience hair loss. I think one can never avoid that. But it's sad to see that they gave up on me. Ehehe. Maybe I need enough sleep. That's all

Okay so what else is new. I'm addicted the this tv series called Mad Men. It is about an advertising agency in the 60's. I like how they portrayed women in the 60's. Different women with different character and aspiration but they were all attractive. And the props is so real! And I like how they tally the ads in the series with the real ones in the sixties. Such as the Beetle "Lemon" ads. And they mentioned McCann-Erickson and Leo-Burnett as their competitor. Really nice. I'm halfway through the first season. I'm really late. Ehehe

My hair is getting thinner. Which reminds me why I used to hate combing my hair. I do not like seeing strands of hairs on my hairbrush. It makes me sad. Ehehe. But I've been using hair fall control shampoo and hair growth tonic plus vitamin supplements for my hair. So far my hair fall after shampoo-ing has been reduced by 30%. I used to shed 90 hair strands after shampoo-ing and now it has been reduced to 40-60 strands. Yes I took the effort of counting my surrendered hair on the bathroom floor. I'm sure it'll take more than 6 months for my hair to become thick. So patience is the key now. I'm really scared of getting bald. I have 3 strands of white hair on my hair already. I'd rather have a head full of white hair than none. :D

I've been having trouble sleeping. But last night which was 3 hours ago. I thought I've finally fallen asleep when suddenly, I heard the sound of the main door grill being opened. Sort of like a banging sound...

U see, many2 months ago, I used to sleep with the lights off and get hempap-ed frequently and a friend suggested that I sleep with the night lamp on. So I've tried it and didn't get hempap-ed. I'm so used to getting hempap-ed that it doesn't have any effect on me. I would just sleep and not fight it. But another friend of mine said that to avoid getting hempap-ed, I should make my bed before landing on my bed. The action sort of tells the thing that you are going to sleep there. Last night was the 3rd night that I slept with the lights off except that, last night I was too lazy to make my bed.

...So I heard the main door being banged and I tried waking up but I couldn't move. But I just had to move. I was scared that someone was in the house. So finally I was able to move and I walked to my bedroom door and stick my ears against the door and tried to hear if there's anyone downstairs. I had my handphone in my hand, just to be on the safe side. But nope no sound. Then suddenly Mak got out from her room to prepare us sahur. I was worried for her. What if someone was waiting for her downstairs. But once I heard the sound of hot minyak I know that she was fine. But I waited until Papa woke me up.

That's when I realised that I was tricked by this hempap-ers. They are sneaky nowadays. And I know it's the Ramadan. I'm not making this up!

I'm still trying to sleep

I don't believe it when someone say that they believe in Karma. I think reward and punishments in life are God's work. He decide for us. Of course Allah has some ways to teach you a lesson by throwing u challenges and sometimes he tempt u and sometimes he makes u feel like the world is against u. And he did that because maybe there are things that u did that he doesn't like. But yet when someone do something bad do u, I don't think it's our right to say "I believe in Karma". It's like wishing something bad to happen to another person. Another one of Allah's creation. Who have his own sins with god just like we ourselves do. And we, from time to time make mistakes intentionally and sometimes unconsciously. Who knows what God had planned for us.

And I'm not saying that I'm perfectly nice. I do have a few people in the list of people that I dislike. But my dislike is not up to the point where I want to hurt them. Yet there were times that I just want to hurt them and that feeling is very tiring. It takes up a lot of my energy and it's emotionally draining. I'd feel really2 bad. And I do not like that. But I assure u that just because I didn't do anything to hurt them, the feelings are not bottled up. I'm just grateful to have nice people around to be thankful for. But I do not like to feel like I'm being bullied. And again I'm not saying that I'm really nice just because I don't do bad things to other people. Probably the bad things that I know did in life are things that God hates. And he is punishing me from time to time. And not because someone else wishes that something bad to happen to me. That makes me no different that those who are very revengeful. We have all sinned.

Oh I'm not depressed. Ehehe I'm just saying :D This is yellow